Saturated

I have 24 hours per day. I have 6 days per week. I have 4 weeks per month. I haven't change to make a change. I just stayed in the same place without make changes. I felt it was meaningless. I couldn't take my own times because of everything that I though it was ridiculous. Ridiculous things that was happend around me. Ridiculous things that I did in almost a day. I haven't change to wake up and see deeper about something that happened. I couldn't run and run away to grab a change. I want to go to teh place that people will not find me. I want to go to the stone to hide myself. I will not see the rubbish in flowers petals. I am going to make a change, to change people's tought about a change. I cannot recover it at all. I am going to build my own place without ridiculous reason why you have to alive. I am going to emphasize to Why I were here..